NEXT WEEK is START of SCHOOL

hey, I am still jobless and am at home. Tomorrow, I am going to meet up with one of my JC friends. I dunno if it'll be a fun outing but it beats staying at home all the time. Sunday is HARI RAYA AIDILADHA. YAY! (whatever, it is just another extension of the long holiday I'm having...) The classified ads recently have been advertising some really OKAY jobs but their requirements are a tad OVER mine.

Anyway, my youngest sis is going to school next week. So, me and other sis is trying to cheer up the LAST (for the youngest sis) few days of the hols for her. I dun exactly know what to do. Currently, I've come up with "GAME-NIGHT"- a night of playing games. Oh well! Other sis is now playing SNAP with younger sis. It so brings back memories of my childhood when my other sis and elder bro came out with creative and funky ways to keep ourselves occupied during the holidays. Just yesterday when Julie was cleaning up her table that she came across some photographs of when we were young. How time flies...It seems like the day before when we were playing 'pyramid game', had a pretend library membership card amongst each other and even had a lucky dip session that involves pretend money. The innocence, laughter and bonding of our yesteryears is priceless. I kinda "kesian" my youngest sis for she is brought up in a world of violence, immorality and shamelessness. Still, her surprisingly shrewd nature is a sign that she'll be at least protected from facing the brunt of realities in future.

And...
I am going to take my CERT soon...YEARGH....

the STRANGE thing about...

MOTHERS...

Sighs! I do not know why but I think that mothers are strange creatures. They love their children so much that they would do anything to protect their children from hurt. Even from the realities of the world. I am so frustrated now. It seems that I want to talk to my mum about lots of things. I've always wanted to find a kindred spirit but my mum is already one. She keeps hiding stuff- things that we supposedly should not know.

I quarrelled with her the other day. I really regretted it. But, I want to be free yet I cannot. I cannot afford to make her worry or hurt her anymore. Time is cruel and each micro-second is precious from now on. If only, I knew about the importance of time, love and family. Still, time does not allow for regrets.

I am so confused. I cannot do anything. I hope things would turn out for the better. I know that I did have had a wonderful life before. I also know that life is not a bed of roses. But, let's hope that life would not be a bed of rocks from now on. That's what I do not know and cannot know.

DECEMBER RAIN

Hi...woah, the weather in Singapore is really COLD. went out yesterday to celebrate OSH's bdae. actually it's a pre-bdae thingy. oh well. anyway, yesterday, 19th dec was the coldest day ever this year. surprisingly, today starts off as a sunny day. I miss gazing at stars during the night. Rain is considered a blessing since it relieves us of heat and dehydration. But, too much...sigh. You know, if Singapore had 4 seasons...the rainy weather recently is quite akin to the snowing season. the continuous and repeated rain does resemble the falling snow in western parts of the world. My brother is supposedly going to Taiwan soon or maybe the start of next year for his NS training. TAIWAN! that's my current dream destination...I suppose I should not elaborate further why is this so...haha.

I have been ROTTING at home since the start of december. Oh well. It's not that bad. Quarrelled with my family members recently. Sighs! Nonetheless, managed to start on some reading that I have been putting off since I entered JC. Actually, home is the best place ever. I mean, you can laze around without feeling guilty. No, I do feel guilty...it's quite weird having to do nothing.

Oh yah, I heard a duet by Jacky and Mindow on air at Dongli 88.3FM. Yikes, they sound good together! Why no Shaowei? I seriously think that Shaowei is an example of the perfect guy. For now at least. I mean, my criteria for the RIGHT GUY is ever-changing. But, some do remain constant. Like, the guy has to be financially secure and has to be faithful to his religion and ME!

Oh well, this post is gonna be short. I have to bathe now. And gonna settle some issues...