*SICK* princess

hello!

I'm sick. I've been coughing for the past few days. Sighs! I know that I SHOULD NOT snack on chocolates and chips but I'm HUNGRY all the time. I think I need to get out more often. Nagging's the order of the day around here. It is not much different if I were to get out. I just watched the Princess Diaries Movie. YAY! I am such a princess. HAHA! My dream is always to be a princess. A lofty dream but a dream that keeps me alive and real. I am a princess in my own right. I just lack a tiara and an official title. I believe that being a princess is all about being true to oneself and having the grace as well as poise to do so.

What's with getting a degree, anyway? SERIOUSLY. Besides getting a well-paying job and a clever husband, I don't see the value of that particular certificate. Well, I am seriously grousing about the ever-present need to self-improve yourself through education in Singapore. WHY? It's because EDUCATION = MONEY = HAPPINESS.

Let me justify the above deduction.

One needs to be educated to secure a job that pays well in Singapore where human resource is ABUNDANT. Note that the abundance of human beings in a small island means that the talented, educated and unique individuals are the ones that STAND OUT.

One needs money to basically operate his daily needs. This is because the world is getting too globalised and technology-dependent. A poor man has to struggle with maintaining the utility bills (if he has a lodging) , his food and drink and to maintain a secure income. It would be even worse if he has to maintain a family. A beggar may be happy to sleep in the streets but I don't think he is the least bit happy about his situation. All the "free" things in the world have to be paid with money. Water, natural produce and even fresh air are no longer FREE.

Happiness is indeed relative. One can be happy helping others. That does not need money. Wait a minute. It does. Volunteering may be a selfless and satisfying venture. But, one needs to have money to support the transport fees needed to travel to the place that needs volunteer help. Even online volunteers need to sign up for internet subscription to actively volunteer via the Web.

I heard that any job advertisement requiring a degree actually prioritize applicants with an honours degree or better. Obviously, I would do the same if I were the employer. Still, consider if one can be happy after achieving the degree for a job to later pursue happiness.

Alright. I am seriously whining now. I cannot imagine why there can be people who are so proud to have studied hard and prove themselves clever in the academic area. Can't there be other ways of measuring cleverness in a person? Am I stupid or less able if I am unable to enter into a university?

If only miracles exist. If only I knew.

NEED A JOB!

HELLO!

HAha. I am still at home. I need a JOB. I want to get out. OHKAY. I shall stop whining. I just finished searching for jobs online. None of them particularly suit me. Anyway, I need to start calling up schools in the area. I wonder if I can get a job by this week. Woah, a CHALLENGE posed by ME to ME. HAHA. This font is so cool.

By the way, I am currently crazy about the taiwanese girl group, S.H.E. Hebe is so cute! I think the group is way more talented than 5566 although a number of their songs are "borrowed" from original singers. Still, their original songs are not bad. Despite so, I am not keen on buying their newest album, PLAY. Other than the song - Zhong Guo Hua; the other songs are not so appealing.
** I love their song, SUPERMODEL!!!**

I heard a bad news that 183club might be losing a member. Sighs! Shaowei is so wrong in his decision to join that band. There is not much news about 5566. Since SNTGD changed its format to indoor dancing, I cannot be bothered about keeping track of the show. WQYL is also rather boring since Shaowei is only on the SZDZ section. Nonetheless, I am really looking forward to their upcoming album(at least it is rumoured to be releasd this year).

Arghh! I hate having to anticipate my future. I don't know. Being unable to know anything is such an INSECURE feeling.

I NEED TO FIND A JOB...............................................

BUBBLE happyness!

HAHA! I've purposely misspelt a word as seen above. Oh well. Feeling rather contented now. Thanks to the ever continuing support from my LOVED ones. I might consider taking the polytechnic route. I'm doing SCIENCE! HAHA! I'm going to be a Science convert. Well, I might try out doing food technology. I would love manipulating organic chemicals to invent NEW, HALAL creations. Maybe, I could come up with halal gourmet dishes. Still, my dearest mum would like me to persevere to enter an university. Sighs!

I'm PISSED being a girl. I know this is the ??????th time that I've whined about me being a girl. But, being a girl just has its disadvantages. I mean, we have to be discrete and refined yet strong and assertive to survive in this world. WHATEVER! I am so not liking the part about having to be refined. I suppose I have to focus on the benefits of being a female.

It's rather HOT today. Nonetheless, a fine day. I went to the AIRPORT today. YAY! I managed to view airplanes at the viewing galleries. Nothing interesting but it was fun exploring the airport in the morning. THANKS to the person who willingly accompanied me that day! ^-^

I want to blow bubbles at the park. Bubbles are such a representation of happiness. So delicate and technicolour. HAHA! Alright! I'm going to sign off. I have to promote my abilities...







IF I WAS GIVEN A CHANCE TO RELIVE MY LIFE, I WOULD GIVE THAT CHANCE UP TO GAIN TRUE HAPPINESS IN THIS LIFE.

IF I WOULD BE GIVEN 3 WISHES, THEY WOULD BE FOR THE ONES I LOVE.

IF THERE IS NO MORE LOVE IN THIS WORLD, THERE WOULD NO MORE BE ME.

YEARGH!

FIRST, I am PISSED. How can another person manipulate the life of another? How can some being get thrilled by making others suffer? How can we protect ourselves if we are only human? Why do we think that our lives are unfair when we are better off than others? Why can't there be real peace? When will I learn that life is a practical joke that plays on one's conscience and responsibilities? When will I stop being bothered by the incessant questions that plague my existance?

SHUT UP!

Sighs! I really need a job. I'm practically wasting my life away. I don't know. I'm worried about how I may be perceived. But then, aren't all humans vulnerable to malignant perceptions? I am not good enough. Can I ever achieve something? I need to get out. I need to run away. Can I? Is there really a true escape? I cannot escape. There is no such thing as an escape. If there is, no one would contemplate suicide. Is suicide even an escape? Death is an end. It is not an escape. An escape is a temporary diversion from the troubles and frustration that one faces. Death cannot be an escape for it is truly an end.

I cannot get a job now. I do not have any relevant industry skills. I want to work flexible hours. I need to find experience. But how? OK. I am really depressed and confused.

WHAT I REALLY NEED IS AN ESCAPE!